In High Spirits

I’m so happy I feel like sprinkling fairy dust everywhere I go. That is if the fairy dust ain’t glitters and/or small, sticky, shiny stuff.

These past few weeks, I’ve been focusing on ditching the pessimist in me, it’s a battle I’m winning (Hurrah!). I mean, the world’s radically depressing only if you think of it as such, right? Once you get the hang of thinking in a really positive way, you also get the bonus of having your brain tweaked to not think negatively of other people. Pretty good deal, I tell you.

I’m only as good as my last thought. Lately, I couldn’t help but think about this line every time an odd situation would arise. I don’t know if it could be of any help to others, but it sure helps me a lot.

I don’t think this automatically makes me a good person per se. I think I’m just better. I like better.

It doesn’t always rain.

Lately, I feel like nothing can truly annoy me. Not the guy who elbowed me on the bus, not a colleague’s weird laugh, not the lady glaring at me when I was waiting for a ride.

Why be annoyed, I even asked myself. They’re human beings who just happened to commit tiny errors, and I just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Shit happens, but that doesn’t mean I should let that shit ruin my entire day.

Not being annoyed is a pretty big deal for me. I used to be on my toes when it comes to a lot of things. But for the first time in a really long time, I feel calm.

I finally truly realized that a lot of things are beyond my control, and there’s no point dwelling on those. People, no matter how irritable some are, are who they are. No amount of words could make them change if they, themselves, refuse to change. Just the same, it’s stupid to act a certain way just for a certain person.

We are who we are. We should change for us to be better, not because somebody threw a fit against us. I learned that the hard way, but I’d like to think that that made me a better person.

Someone stood up against me. I stood up against that someone too. Looking back, it’s just plain silly. Being something neither of us refuse to end, it just puts a smile on my face.

It’s me against myself, I said. I see a part of me in that person, and it’s stupid to argue with yourself, isn’t it?

Go back, breathe, and let go. People aren’t here to tear the life out of you. Sometimes, they’re there to teach you a lesson—a lesson you’d never want to forget, a lesson you may forever be smiling at.